I was terribly ill and near death with heart problems at the same time that my sister was near death in another part of the same hospital with a diabetic coma. I left my body and went into the corner of my room, where I watched them work on me down below.
Suddenly, I found myself in conversation with my sister, who was up there with me. I was very attached to her, and we were having a great conversation about what was going on down there when she began to move away from me. I tried to go with her but she kept telling me to stay where I was. “It’s not your time,” she said. “You can’t go with me because it’s not your time.” Then she just began to recede off into the distance through a tunnel while I was left there alone.
When I awoke, I told the doctor that my sister had died. He denied it, but at my insistence he had a nurse check on it. She had in fact died, just as I knew she had.…
“WHAT HAPPENS AFTER DEATH IS SO UNSPEAKABLY GLORIOUS THAT OUR IMAGINATIONS AND OUR FEELINGS DO NOT SUFFICE TO FORM EVEN AN APPROXIMATE CONCEPTION OF IT.”—C. J. Jung
Many people don’t realize that the near-death experience they are having has anything to do with death. They will find themselves floating above their body, looking at it from a distance, and suddenly feel fear and/or confusion. They will wonder, “How is it that I can be up here, looking at myself down there?” It doesn’t make any sense to them and they become very confused.
At this point, they may not actually recognize the physical body they are looking at as being their own.
One person told me that while he was out of his body, he passed through an army hospital ward and was amazed at how many young men there were who were about his age and shape who looked like him. He was actually looking at these different bodies, wondering which one was his.
Another person who was in a horrible accident in which he lost two of his limbs remembered lingering over his body on the operating table and feeling sorry for the maimed person on it. Then he realized it was him!
NDEers often feel fear at this point, which then gives way to perfect understanding of what is going on. They can understand what the doctors and nurses are trying to convey to each other (even though they frequently have no formal medical training), but when they try to talk to them or other people present, no one is able to see or hear them.
At this point, they may try to attract the attention of the people present by touching them. But when they do, their hands go right through the person’s arm as though nothing was there.
This was described to me by a woman I personally resuscitated. I saw her have a cardiac arrest and immediately started chest massage. She told me later that while I was working on restarting her heart, she was going up above her body and looking down. She was standing behind me, trying to tell me to stop, that she was fine where she was. When I didn’t hear her, she tried to grab my arm to keep me from inserting a needle in her arm for injecting intravenous fluid. Her hand passed right through my arm. But when she did that, she later claimed that she felt something that was the consistency of “very rarified gelatin” that seemed to have an electric current running through it. I have heard similar descriptions from other patients.
After trying to communicate with others, NDEers frequently have an increased sense of self-identity. One NDEer described this stage as being “a time when you are not the wife of your husband, you are not the parent of your children, you are not the child of your parents. You are totally and completely you.” Another woman said she felt like she was going through “a cutting of ribbons,” like the freedom given to a balloon when its strings are cut.
It is at this point that fear turns to bliss, as well as understanding.
I have talked to cardiac arrest patients who say that the intense pain of their heart attack turns from agony to an almost intense pleasure. Some researchers have theorized that the brain, when it experiences such intense pain, releases a self-made chemical that stops the pain. I will say here that no one has ever done experiments to prove or disprove it. But even if it is true, it doesn’t explain the other symptoms of this phenomenon.
Most people say they are not just some spot of consciousness when this happens. They still seem to be in some kind of body even though they are out of their physical bodies. They say the spiritual body has shape and form unlike our physical bodies. It has arms and a shape although most are at a loss to describe what it looks like. Some people describe it as a cloud of colors, or an energy field.
One NDEer I spoke to several years ago said he studied his hands while he was in this state and saw them to be composed of light with tiny structures in them. He could see the delicate whorls of his fingerprints and tubes of light up his arms.
At this point, a portal or tunnel opens to them and they are propelled into darkness. They start going through this dark space and at the end they come into the brilliant light that we’ll deal with next.
Some people go up stairways instead of through a tunnel. One woman said she was with her son as he was dying of lung cancer. One of the last things he said was that he saw a beautiful spiral staircase going upward. He put his mother’s mind at peace when he told her that he thought he was going up those stairs.
Some people have described going through beautiful, ornate doors, which seems very symbolic of a passage into another realm.
Some people hear a whoosh as they go into the tunnel. Or they hear an electric vibrating sensation or a humming.
In one of the most amazing tunnel experiences I’ve ever heard the tunnel was described as being almost infinite in length and width and filled with light. The descriptions are many, but the sense of what is happening remains the same: the person is going through a passageway toward an intense light.
They also describe this light as being much brighter than anything we experience on earth. But still, despite its brilliant intensity, it doesn’t hurt the eyes. Instead, it’s warm, vibrant, and alive.
In this situation, NDEers frequently meet up with friends and relatives who have died. Often, they speak of these people as being in the same indescribable bodies as theirs.
Besides bright light and luminescent friends and relatives, some people have described beautiful pastoral scenes. One woman I know spoke of a meadow that was surrounded by plants, each with its own inner light.
Occasionally, people see beautiful cities of light that defy description in their grandeur.
In this state, communication doesn’t take place in words as we know them, but in telepathic, nonverbal ways that result in immediate understanding.
Whoever he is, the Being radiates total love and understanding. So much so, that most people want to be with it forever.
But they can’t. At this point they are told, usually by the Being of Light, that they have to return to their earthly body. But first it’s his job to take them on a life review.
This usually takes place in a third-person perspective and doesn’t occur in time as we know it. The closest description I’ve heard of it is that the person’s whole life is there at once.
In this situation, you not only see every action that you have ever done, but you also perceive immediately the effects of every single one of your actions upon the people in your life.
So for instance, if I see myself doing an unloving act, then immediately I am in the consciousness of the person I did that act to, so that I feel their sadness, hurt, and regret.
On the other hand, if I do a loving act to someone, then I am immediately in their place and I can feel the kind and happy feelings.
Through all of this, the Being is with those people, asking them what good they have done with their lives. He helps them through this review and helps them put all the events of their life in perspective.
All of the people who go through this come away believing that the most important thing in their life is love.
For most of them, the second most important thing in life is knowledge. As they see life scenes in which they are learning things, the Being points out that one of the things they can take with them at death is knowledge. The other is love. When people come back they have a thirst for knowledge. Frequently, NDEers become avid readers, even if they weren’t very fond of books before, or they enroll in school to study a different field than the one they are in.
I should point out that not all NDEers have a tunnel experience. Some report a “floating experience,” in which they rise rapidly into the heavens, seeing the universe from a perspective reserved for satellites and astronauts.
The psychotherapist C. G. Jung had an experience like this in 1944 when he had a heart attack. He said that he felt himself rise rapidly to a point far above the earth.
One child I talked to said that he felt himself rise far above the earth, passing through the stars and finding himself up with the angels. Another NDEer described himself as zooming up and seeing the planets all around him and the earth below like a blue marble.
Two physician friends of mine first discovered NDEs for themselves when patients they saved became hostile.
One of them was resuscitating another physician who had just had a cardiac arrest. When the stricken man revived, he said angrily: “Carl, don’t you ever do that to me again.”
Carl was bewildered as to why this anger should arise. But later the revived physician took him aside and apologized for his behavior and explained his experience. “I was mad because you brought me back to death instead of life.” Another physician friend of mine discovered the NDE phenomenon when he resuscitated a man who then yelled at him for taking him out of “that beautiful and bright place.”
NDEers frequently act this way. But it is a short-lived feeling. If you talk to them a week or so later, they are happy to have returned. Although they miss the blissful state, they are glad to have the chance to go on living.
Interestingly, many NDEers feel they are given a choice to return or stay. It may be the Being of Light who offers this choice to them, or a relative who has died. All of the persons I have talked to would stay if they had only themselves to think of. But they usually say they want to go back because they have children left to raise or because their spouses or parents might miss them.
One woman in Los Angeles has faced this question from the Being of Light twice in her life. Once in the late fifties when she was in a coma following an automobile accident, the Being told her it was time to die and go to heaven.
She argued with him, complaining that she was too young to die. But the Being wouldn’t budge until she said, “But I’m young, I haven’t danced enough yet.”
At that point the Being gave out a hearty laugh and allowed her to live.
About thirty years later, she had a cardiac arrest while undergoing minor surgery. Again she passed through the tunnel and found herself with the Being, and again he told her it was her time to die.
This time she argued that she had children to raise and couldn’t leave them at this point in their lives.
“Okay,” said the Being. “But this is the last time. The next time you have to stay.”
The boundaries imposed by space in our everyday lives are often broken in NDEs. During the experience, if NDEers want to go somewhere, they can often just think themselves there. People say that while they were out of their body but watching the doctors work on them in the operating room, they could simply wish their way into the waiting room to see their relatives.
Such experiences are perhaps the best answer to people who think NDEs are the brain playing tricks on itself. After all, on the surface it is entirely possible that the brain, while in great distress, could try to calm itself by creating tunnel experiences and Beings of Light to put the person to rest. But NDEers who can tell you what was going on in other rooms while having their episodes are truly having out-of-body experiences.
I have several examples of people who had out-of-body experiences during their resuscitations and were able to leave the operating room to observe relatives in other parts of the hospital.
One woman who left her body went into the waiting room and saw that her daughter was wearing mismatched plaids.
What had happened was that the maid had brought the child to the hospital and in her haste had just grabbed the first two things off the laundry pile. Later, when she told her family about her experience and the fact that she had seen the girl in these mismatched clothes, they knew that she must have been in that waiting room with them.
Another woman had an out-of-body experience and left the room where her body was being resuscitated. From across the hospital lobby, she watched her brother-in-law as some business associate approached him and asked what he was doing in the hospital.
“Well, I was going out of town on a business trip,” said the brother-in-law. “But it looks like June is going to kick the bucket, so I better stay around and be a pallbearer.”
A few days later when she was recovering, the brother-in-law came to visit. She told him that she was in the room as he spoke to his friend, and erased any doubt by saying, “Next time I die, you go off on your business trip because I’ll be just fine.” He turned so pale that she thought he was about to have a near death experience himself.
Another of these experiences happened to an elderly woman I was resuscitating. I was giving her closed heart massage on an emergency room examining table and the nurse assisting me ran into another room to get a vial of medication that we needed.
It was a glass-necked vial that you’re supposed to hold in a paper towel while breaking off the top so you don’t cut yourself. When the nurse returned, the neck was broken so I could use the medicine right away.
When the old woman came to, she looked very sweetly at the nurse and said, “Honey, I saw what you did in that room, and you’re going to cut yourself doing that.” The nurse was shocked. She admitted that in her haste to open the medicine, she had broken the glass neck with her bare fingers.
The woman told us that while we were resuscitating her, she had followed the nurse back to the room to watch what she was doing.
Excerpt from The Light Beyond